A New Beginning

Something strange has happened to me in the past 2 months-ish.  I think I am becoming too content with my body.  It’s weird.  On one hand, I feel as though I look pretty good these days.  On the other, a big part of me still wants to lose another 30 or so pounds so I can officially be way out of the overweight category and not have to worry about it anymore.  Where I am now (157 to 160) I’m still considered overweight, for one thing, and I’m just too close to my old body for comfort.  Yet, now that I’ve ditched my glasses and cut my hair (a pic of my new ‘do is desperately needed) I look pretty different than I did 10 months ago.  I seriously get compliments every day now, which is hard for me to believe and get used to.

I can tell that I’m on a slippery slope and I’m nervous about it.  In a way I can feel myself becoming content with my current size and relaxing, and I so badly want to relax, especially since I don’t have a wedding and potential public humiliation looming over my head anymore; but I also so badly want to get to my ultimate goal.  All of my life I have dreamed about wearing clothes in a single digit size.  In my head, you can’t be fat if you’re a size 8 or smaller, so that has always been a major goal.  Right now I have a couple things that say “8″ on the tag, but that’s not truly my size.  Heck, as I type this I’m wearing silver jeans in size 33X33, which according to their site translates to a size 16.  I’m also wearing an XL shirt.  So a size 8 I am not.  But, comfortable, I am…

I don’t know what to do right now.  Read the rest of this entry »

I started trying the Body For Life program on Monday of this week.  So far I’ve done my 3 weight training workouts and 2 cardio workouts, so I just have one more cardio workout to do this weekend.   I’m pretty sore, but I think it’s worth it.  I really really want to get out of the overweight BMI category once and for all, and at 157.5 today I am so close, yet so far (3.5 pounds to go).

I’m not going to lie, following Body For Life is hard.  The diet does not appeal to me at all, and I honestly doubt I’ll be able to stick with it.  It’s certainly not something I’m willing to do long term.  All the shakes and supplements seem more like a marketing gimmick than something that’s actually necessary in my opinion.  But, since I am so incredibly sore right now I’m giving those products a whirl; maybe they’ll help my muscles rebuild a little quicker, I don’t know.

Rob is following BFL with me, at least to a degree.  Read the rest of this entry »

Well, it is all over and done with, and now I am back…  Our wedding was on March 28th and I returned from the honeymoon on Monday.  Today’s my first day back at work, which is pretty gosh darn dull, to be honest.  I spent the entire morning reading email and now that I’m finished with that, I am pretty much mentally spent for the day.  We’ll see if I regain my strength a little later after I drink some tea.

The wedding went well and I think it was really fun for everyone who came.  Even the pictures before the wedding were pretty fun, which surprised me a little because I expected to be kind of annoyed by the time we were done with them.  The only part that was a little annoying was taking the family portraits during the cocktail hour… no one was paying attention and it was tough to get everyone arranged.  But, oh well.  I am just a little bummed that I didn’t get to try any of the appetizers.

The honeymoon was also really good.  Read the rest of this entry »