About
About Me:
Hi! I am 26 years old and I live in Chicago. I work full time in the financial industry and dream about being a decorator in my free time. I am engaged to a great guy who happens to be my live in IT support desk for helping me build what I hope will be a great site and a great resource for other people struggling with their weight the way I am.
As for my weight, well, like a lot of people it has always been a problem. I was a heavy kid, a heavy teen, and now I’m an overweight adult. Over the years, my weight has fluctuated between my guesstimate low in the 140s to a high of about 205 (I’m 5′6″). On a good day I feel comfortable in my skin and can hold my head high; on a bad day it is a struggle to even get dressed because I feel so bad about my appearance. I have never felt on the inside the way I know I look on the outside; I know there must be a thin person just waiting to get out in me somewhere.
In order to lose weight I have tried just many different diets and routines. I tried Atkins, south beach, living on lean cuisines, alli, and just regular calorie cutting. For exercise I’ve tried Body for Life, running, walking, elliptical, a personal trainer, swimming, and on and on and on. My current plan is to work out 5 times a week doing whatever I feel like doing that day. I’ve never kept up with a super structured program (such as Body for Life), and I often get frustrated when I’m not in the mood to do the “assigned” exercise on a given day. So, for now at least, I will go to the gym and decide what I want to work on when I get there. I enjoy the elliptical a lot and I want to become a better runner, so that will probably constitute about 80% of my exercise.
About This Site:
So, you may be wondering what this site is all about and why a person would want to be so public about a very personal struggle; I have many answers to those questions! First, as someone who has always struggled with my weight, I feel that I don’t completely relate to women who are trying to lose baby weight, or recently gained weight during a stressful period of their lives. I know these people are dealing with the same struggle I am right now, but I think there is something different about someone like myself who has never not been struggling. I have been dealing with this all of my life; I felt like a misfit in school, I’ve always wondered if I would be more popular or more successful if I were only thinner, I wonder if my friends would value me more, etc. A person who was at one point a healthy weight may have these concerns too, I don’t know, but I don’t see them expressed all that often in the blogs and sites I’ve found.
Secondly, I am doing this because I think it will help me to stay accountable during my journey. I hope others will find my words and journey motivational and helpful. I am going to do my best to make this the site that I had been looking for as my motivation. I’ll get into the details of my diet, my exercise regime, and post updates as often as possible. I believe a person can never post too many progress (or lack thereof) pictures, so even though it scares me to put myself out there like that, I am going to do it in the hope that someday it will help another person who is in my shoes. Who knows, maybe seeing the photos will help me to stay motivated, you just never know…
Thanks for visiting and happy reading!
